12 April 2010

a lesson in being bold

"lotrllamaofdoom: Wow, this girl is really bad. She keeps laughing and making
the rest of the DC cast look bad."

Context for those of you reading this - This was a comment under a Youtube upload of a Divine Comedy sketch from last year. The "this girl" in question is me, my friends.

And to Lord of the Rings Llama of Doom - I have to say I agree with you.
I surely did keep laughing, and it brought down the energy and timing of the show. It's not fun for me watch, trust me.

And there was a time where this casual remark would have really gotten to me. I would have over-analyzed and fretted and concluded that Lord of the Doom Llama was 100% right, and that's the end-all be-all. Yup. Insecurity can be pretty crippling.

Sure I still have some, but I'm getting to the point where I'm far less harsh on myself. And one woman that helps me maintain that is Florence Foster Jenkins.

That saucy minx.

Flo J was an American soprano superstar, whose career culminated in a performance at Carnegie Hall only a month before she died. Only one thing - she was terrible. Like, astoundingly bad. Like, I'm not sure the T-Pain app on the iPhone would be of much help. Critically panned at every turn, Ms. Jenkins kept right on truckin', continuing to do what she loved. She is quoted as saying, "People may say I can't sing, but no one can ever say I didn't sing." Darn right.

And look where her tenacity and self-confidence got her - Carnegie Hall! Find me an operatic soprano today that doesn't have at least a mild aspiration to perform there.

So the lesson here: While we should be ever-watchful that we haven't become completely delusional, one can always benefit from a dose of "Forget you, critics. I'm doing what I love." It just so happens that I love to laugh

1 comments:

jo said...

From a Taylor perspective (because you know I always have one) ifi you're not laughing during a DC skit who will? Laughing is completely acceptable if not necessary at times. If you're not having fun, is it worth it? My answer to that is an emphatic no. Sometimes the laugh is for you, sometimes the laugh is for the audience. Is that too selfish of me? Probably, but like you say, sometimes the comedy is for the performer and that's what keeps them (the performer) coming back night after night.
And as for your reference to Florence Foster Jenkins, ha! You're spot on. Isn't she terrible and amazing at the same time? Go Florence. Go DC laughers. Go anybody to takes a minute to enjoy what they do.